This is a difficult time for me and my family. Due to a tragic accident caused by me, we lost one of our dogs yesterday. We have only had Maddie for a year, but she was loved so much, especially by me and my boys. I can’t imagine spending my days here at home without her fun, charismatic energy keeping me company. Although a little thing at only 5 pounds, she wasn’t a barker. She would come up to me and look at me. I’d say “what” she’d say “grrr” I’d say “what” she’d say “grrrrrrrr”. This was her way of talking to me. She was so excited to see us walk through the door. She loved laying on my lap at night when we watched TV. And if my husband was gone, she loved to sleep in bed with me curled right up next to my back. I know that I will eventually be able to think of her without tears, but for now, my heart breaks. Into a million pieces. And some of those little pieces died with her as she lay dying in my arms. Her last beats taking my heart with her. Maddie, you will always carry my heart, and the hearts of your family, with you until we meet again. I love you, baby.
Even though My husband wouldn’t let her sleep in bed with us, his pillow is always where I would find her sleeping. Paybacks! My parents, being dog lovers themselves, always found a friend in Maddie when they visited us. And a picture of her and I. I think she was actually smiling =)
And my favorite portrait of her ever. I took this about a week after we got her. I will be getting a print of this to hang on my wall in my office so that she will always be with me.
A friend sent me this poem today. She also lost a dog a while back and knows how I felt about Maddie. Thank you Lois for taking the time to find this and send it to me.
I lost a treasured friend today
The little dog who used to lay
Her gentle head upon my knee
And shared her silent thoughts with me.
She’ll come no longer to my call
Retrieve no more her favorite ball
A voice far greater than my own
Has called her to his golden throne.
Although my eyes are filled with tears
I thank him for the happy years
He let her spend down here with me
And for her love and loyalty.
When it is time for me to go
And join her there, this much I know
I shall not fear the transient dark
For she will greet me with a bark.